This was a tough week. I got news that I was not accepted into the program that I wanted. In my head I can't think of a reason why. I also can't think of a way that anything could work more perfectly. I am one of those guys that can set priorities quickly and stick with them until the end. Well when I was blessed with the opportunity to meet a wonderful girl my Jenga tower of priorities fell and I built it again.
So the time line is a bit different than I had in mind.
At church this morning I got to talk to the fella that presented the message (it rotates). He told me something that I knew but, have a bad habit of forgetting. You have to not be sure of something to have faith in it. I know that the Lord is in control and that worrying will prove to be of zero benefit. I am building and forming other options and I have a wonderful support group here and across the world. That wonderful girl has been well... wonderful. My family is always there, no matter what happens, I am so grateful. Katy made me a fantastic dinner and we all talked about all of the other options.
My personality is such that I become paralyzed when things don't go according to plan. I know, I know I claim that I am not a planner but, it turns out that there are goals and dreams that I have sub-conscience plans to achieve. I am well aware that everything will go exactly as it should in sync with the Master Planner but, man let me tell you, saying it is one thing, the doing... well, I will let you know.
It works out ok though cause you know when that tower falls those bottom pieces don't really go any where. That foundation is the same each time I get a little anxious and try and take thing on my own.
So here I go, one block at a time figuring out what this next year holds for me. I am looking seriously at mid-May to return. I will look to get on with a laboratory for the summer and try to get a publication or two out the door along with additional experience. Like I said, the goals are the same, it's just that time line that took a knock.
Please don't worry, I'm not. I am really doing well. I am exploring new options and have a peace even in the not knowing for sure. All is well because the stuff that really matters isn't wrapped up in any particular program, it happens where ever you are.
I will certainly keep you updated on new opportunities and options. They are definitely there, I just haven't found all of them yet.
So the time line is a bit different than I had in mind.
At church this morning I got to talk to the fella that presented the message (it rotates). He told me something that I knew but, have a bad habit of forgetting. You have to not be sure of something to have faith in it. I know that the Lord is in control and that worrying will prove to be of zero benefit. I am building and forming other options and I have a wonderful support group here and across the world. That wonderful girl has been well... wonderful. My family is always there, no matter what happens, I am so grateful. Katy made me a fantastic dinner and we all talked about all of the other options.
My personality is such that I become paralyzed when things don't go according to plan. I know, I know I claim that I am not a planner but, it turns out that there are goals and dreams that I have sub-conscience plans to achieve. I am well aware that everything will go exactly as it should in sync with the Master Planner but, man let me tell you, saying it is one thing, the doing... well, I will let you know.
It works out ok though cause you know when that tower falls those bottom pieces don't really go any where. That foundation is the same each time I get a little anxious and try and take thing on my own.
So here I go, one block at a time figuring out what this next year holds for me. I am looking seriously at mid-May to return. I will look to get on with a laboratory for the summer and try to get a publication or two out the door along with additional experience. Like I said, the goals are the same, it's just that time line that took a knock.
Please don't worry, I'm not. I am really doing well. I am exploring new options and have a peace even in the not knowing for sure. All is well because the stuff that really matters isn't wrapped up in any particular program, it happens where ever you are.
I will certainly keep you updated on new opportunities and options. They are definitely there, I just haven't found all of them yet.
=) It will come into place. Keep talking to your Daddy and keep your eyes and ears open for His direction - He'll lead you, He always does. Talk to you soon!
ReplyDeleteditto to what heather said. but i know you know that.
ReplyDeletethese two across the hall love you! :)
and you're still my favorite hand and foot partner... even if we sucked it up tonight.
Ditto to what Heather said, too.
ReplyDeleteThese two across the ocean love you, too!
And we are excited about 9 weeks!!! :) xox
Jake, consider this.
ReplyDeleteSince the folks who run the program did not choose you, that indicates a certain lack of good judgment and since they did not communicate with you to let you know why, they have also demonstrated a lack of communication skill.
Better that you should learn their shortcomings without the pain of actually being there and learning their deficiencies.
A blessing has been bestowed upon you.
Love
Uncle Bill